I dont have a lot of time – soon it’ll be gone and I realise that up until this point that I’ve had a good time and I’ve enjoyed it. But as the tide leaves the shores, and calls me to sea, it think how much more I could have lived, and it makes me …
Its an interesting time, when you know its the end. When decisions are made that seem to make sense, that for some reason don’t argue or fight for alternative reasons. When you know that its time to stop, to realise that its enough now and nothing will follow. interesting times these – those that speak …
I’m in a constant state of realisation, every waking moment – i know that I’m loosing. I feel your grip on my hand weaken, forever weakening and I let you slip away into the world, free from me. As I think about my day, it feels empty, without the thoughts of you, knowing that I …
When I loose, sometimes I find solace in blaming it on God. He is my hero sometimes and i hate him also. Sometimes I dont know if i believe in him – but i desperately want to. in this way, he has given a lot to me, he has taken alot from me also – …
Today I said goodbye to one of the most wonderful people I’ve ever known. Its not often that I get distracted. I can’t tell you what it is that captivates me, but its distinct and unique and very very rare, but when i come across is, it notices me and I notice it back – …
The more I write, the more I discover things about myself.
Sometimes I feel that there in not enough in my life. Its as though I want to do more but I can’t. I dont know whats stopping me. It might be obvious, like motivation, depression etc but I don’t think so. Powerless sometimes I feel, a prisoner within myself, I hold myself captive, ruthlessly. The …
Fixing things doesn’t seem to be working, listening doesn’t make me feel any better. And it doesn’t matter anyway. I don’t care – its a mind swear. I cant decide what’s on my mind – I really feel like its fading. My life’s invisible, i hardly know when its around. I hate to enjoy hating …
amidst the quite tranquil scenery that helplessly places itself so delicately in my mind, lies a relentless thought that lives there, undefined. It roams my mind, this beautiful beast – terrorized by itself, plagued with pain it sleeps with the flowers and rests in the shade of the day. yet it wakes from its temporary …
Sometimes i think that we occupy ourselves with things out of pure boredom or general intrest however, these things become apart of our routine and we forget about other things. the other things might be important… for me, my distraction is computing, where we’ve made up a set of rules and invented something – it …