To have someone loose faith in you is the one only truth that you have that tells you to stop trying, to stop hoping and tells you in a voice you always listen to, to start realising now what went wrong. There are No ifs buts or maybes now or in the future here- no …

I am paranoid of dying. Each day I think that tomorrow will be my last. I’m running out of time. I’ve not documented enough of this life. Tomorrow I’ll be 23 and then I’ve not done enough wig my life. It worries me greatly.

I think I am the happiest when I’m alone. The more I spend time by myself the more I start to realise what I like and what I don’t about myself, about things around me,about people. I enjoy the things I learn about myself and I truely think that no one can teach me things …

What I’d like to know is how one measures ones performance in life. I’m sure it’s some inner calibration that defines it. Is it enjoying your life or making a diffirence in this life that really matters? Is it living, to die satisfied?

I’m thankful for who I am, where I am and at 22 I’m try not to forget that we’re all running out of time. Shortly, things will change and when looking back, will it be questions that haunt me?

When are we ready? When do we know when it is right for us in anything we do?

I wonder if humans could be evolving into a intelligence state that means that traditional evolution principles like the need to b stronger than your competitor In order to survive and find a partner are taking some strain – are we becoming a species that thrives on knowing more than the compatition and thus more …

My parents would probably regret this now but when I was a child, during a stage in our home life, rife with bickering and frustration, my folks and I would fight, and at time my folks would fight amoungst themselves which I didn’t like but anyway they said that was because of me that they …

You know that guy on the train you sits alone at a four seated seat, expecting you to find yourself a smaller 2 seated seat? Yeah him, that guy. Fuck ’em that’s what I say when I see you thinking that… Haha