To have someone loose faith in you is the one only truth that you have that tells you to stop trying, to stop hoping and tells you in a voice you always listen to, to start realising now what went wrong. There are No ifs buts or maybes now or in the future here- no place to hang up your hopes and no room to prepare yourself anymore. Now is a point at which you move away, toward other things, taking with you what you learnt. Only when you loose and the race has finished, do you stop trying to win. Sometimes you need to loose to realise the race is finished.