sometimes i wonder is it is nessesary to put my efforts in things that seem so abstract and estranged from things that matter. For example computers, what really are computers ? they are a use, not a usage of something that more meaningful to life and our lives. they seem like a place holder, those …
what is it that you want from me? …it was this that i feared.
I see you there, high up in the clouds, smiling and so content with your space. Its so soft up there, isn’t it? Yeas, the air is fresh there. How now? can you not see the trees? The bees are being while the rabbits are fleeing, how now? can you not see the trees? nor …
i think at the end of the day, all that remains – no matter who you are, are those little things that define us – things that are strange and so like us, things that define us are the things that we tend to do – and i think at the end of it all …
right now i think i need to embrance who i am , its far too often that we try to be otherthings and are too afraid to set our own paths and conventions – you cannot escape how you are, you cannot.Then i feel if you cannot escape how you are what you like, how …
even computering is a abstraction that we have defined – just like the abstractions in the matric and in my life. For instance Memory, its not holdable, its abstract, so is process and executing code and run time environment – networking, streams of data, space these are not real as in real, but they are …
Sometimes i find myself in higher places, places that are abstract and almost virtual, I sometimes really believe that if we believe enough in somwthing and do it the justice of carrying though with it it is true – like the matrix, the matrix was a virtual concept , an abstraction that became true, sometimes …
its getting outta hand now, i slept the entire day, it rained and it was great to sleep that long – i only woke up a 4pm.But now its 10 pm and i should sleep – but i cant. This is really getting outta hand – i just can’t get to sleep – and the …
why do i praise you so? When times are tough and seas so rough, why do i praise you so? You are not, yet i make you to be – i create your wrapper and give you the confidence and when you are confident and you are all these things that i have said you …
I sometimes get depressed about all the things that i have to do, become and get behind me – its like my entire life is based on reaching certain mile stones and then when i get them – its the next one to go… I mean even to the extent of living( deep ) , …