I sometimes get depressed about all the things that i have to do, become and get behind me – its like my entire life is based on reaching certain mile stones and then when i get them – its the next one to go…
I mean even to the extent of living( deep ) , you leave school and already im told varsity is the way to go, then its this and then its that – sometimes i wish that i could just say “fuck you guys” this times im going to do it my way – so go and bother someone else.
Even now, my policy of “if its not comfortable its not good” is taking strain, even studying is boring – i dont want to go to university anymore – its only my first year – who says i can’t do something later ?
Fuck i hate having to do things that aren’t emotionaly motivated – they seem all to be chronologically motivated …
damn.
And its not like im naive or anything , with “its not goot if its not comfortable blah blha” but ‘cmon how can we do anyhting if we dont want to right?
And when we really want to do something then we will do it, and we will do it very fucking well, beter than if we were told “you should” or “you must” do this or that or fuck………………….
arghhhh