Stu In Progress

My whole life I’ve tried to preempt what people are thinking or want and now I’m thinking that people decisions are their own and I should just see what happens in each instance and try nit predict.

I find it incredibly difficult to relate sometimes to people. Most times they feel diffirent to the ways I feel and sometimes this makes it difficult for me to understand why they think or say the sings they do. It confuses me because it seems to me that they know it shouldn’t. How can I …

Sometimes I’m oblivious. At times my mind is blind and my thoughts cannot see. So innocent though and how so disasterous. Sometimes I cannot read certain pages of this book called life, it is as though they are written some in diffirent languages that I cannot read – only a few pages on do I …

We are so lucky to be alive, we so take it for granted. It’s truely wonderful. And it’s wonderful to be young.

The biggest thing I have to protect is my well being, my heart, independance and feelings.

I have not found that one which will climb my wall successfully, only taunt me to come down and give up my heart.

I went to he theatre yesterday with a lady and I realised how some diffirent girls are to one another. Strange because I’ve never diffirentiated girls from each other, probably because I’m not always around them but anyway the thing is I usually compare me, man with them, girl and that’s it – let alone …

I think my bigger battle in life is trying to be me and be normal at the same time.

Sometimes I just want to stop, forget and never remember. When the day rebuilds those memories I hide, the one that tear the sinews of my existance – I wish I could stop the day and start sleeping – for only then am I truelly content, hidden and free. I slept the whole day today.