I went to he theatre yesterday with a lady and I realised how some diffirent girls are to one another. Strange because I’ve never diffirentiated girls from each other, probably because I’m not always around them but anyway the thing is I usually compare me, man with them, girl and that’s it – let alone girl who can’t stop talking or girl who is quiet and sensitive or girl who is insecure or whatever. But after comparing my last two encounters, I’ve come to like the one more than the other. It’s strange – it’s almost like finding piece of a puzzle you’ve been looking for. As it happens, the one I like the most is the one I can’t have – go figure and the one that I kinda like relies on other people to make her happy and I’m not someone who provides entertainment.
The one that I walk home every once in a while where we have time to chat and discuss I like better than the one that I took to the cinema, who brought two of her house mates with – I could hardly talk to her – it’s kinda like scratching the surface of who I am and I suppose who she is but i’ve not heard back from her and someway I think it’s because we didn’t take the best oppertunity to get to know one another and I wonder if that because she prefers the brief encounter to ‘know’ someone. If so, its good to know because that’s not my kind of girl. She happens to be from my homeland and the other, English.
The english girl, could find the funny side of everything and would fill up the conversation when i got tired of talking and she’d do it freely and that’d make me get involved again. She would think about what she says if i asked her a strange of difficult thing on the way. But most importantly, she laughed at my jokes even if they were stupid, she enjoyed listening about me and also telling me about herself. There is definitely something I like about this English girl, but the one I should relate to most just reminds me of a girl, not diffirentiated – a girl from back home.
And I know, I don’t want just a girl, not from back home. Not the ones that remind me of other girls – I want one that is a unique personality, a mission, a journey of discovery one that you have to interpret on the fly to get to know her. That time it takes to do that -is enough for me.
I think but I’m not sure that girls that talk alot actually suite me provided they give me time to talk back. Also, maybe it’s the ones that are happy with themselves, nearly confident because let’s face it no woman is absolutely confident even though she likes to think she is. Yeah, I think it’s that someone who is calm, happy with who they are -every one else just makes you uncomfortable because they try to compensate with other things that’s somehow don’t make me feel comfortable.
I’m on my own journey of discovery so i suppose I may be a hypocrite – god willing!