Express – to take a concept,emotion that is not visible and cannot be represented by any material thing and percieve as a something less abstract like poetry, art, music etc…
To express a feeling one may feel not only sad or angry, but emotions can range from depressed like when you feel you are not in tune with the world or the world is not in tune with you, uncertain like when you can’t figure wheather you are ugly or you are beautiful, mislead like when you thought one thing and another thing took effect, confused like why your car is red instead of blue and it parked in your garage,happy like when you discover that you have been awarded a bursary, indiffirent like when you learn that your friend has broken up with his/her boy/girl friend – who is your brother/sister, neutral like when something you expected to happen happens.Their are so many senarios in life with so many emotions that nothing can define them all – their are so many and in so many amounts and in so many diffirent combination that it is impossible to put your finger on them all.In this way it is very difficult to represent them or convey them or describe the detail of them in each situation – though we do try to – in varying gradients of success, sometimes we can because it id the underlying effect that an emotion produces that we can identify and describe – so we do, but when small things are tried to be explained and represented are things inconsistant – paintings seem to be the best way to describe such emotions in mappings of shades, hues, colours and the combinations of each.
So their are so many ways and we choose to talk about things and talking only describes the underlying effects of emotions.Writing on the other hand deals far deeper and can reach more detailed emotions, smaller ones – the ones that when described incorrectly change the underlying effects…
So we should bear in mind that when writing – sometimes if we dont concentrate while we describe something we can incorrectly describe emotions.
Emails are the source of much frustration and confusion to me and many people who read emails word for word and create a picture of drawing of all the emotions that are in the mail and then look at it and say hmmm thats a nice/disgusting painting.The thing is that the margin for error is much greater in written form – because it allows for so much room for speculation – sometimes you define the emotion that arise from someones poor effort to describe something,In this way it is rather powerfull in that if placed in context correctly – the recipient may read diffirently what you initially descibed.For example “I love the way you do that” if the context is set up incorrectly, then you may seem that you are leaning towards the fact that you are keen on that person – if you put this phrase inbetween descriptions of beauty, comfort etc…
I know this, but i tend to be lazy and it gets me in trouble – i describe just the basics, i tend to hate to punctuate and would rather say “fuck” for irritation, “god” for supprise and “idiot” for something stupid – now this has got me in really deep water with people – i supose it is warrented.Suppose i should take more care – i remember once i spoke freely about things like i do – casually – using “fuck this”, “fuck that” “oh god” , “jesus christ” and other things that i have defined myself in certain ways.I suppose my definitions and regualities are way diffirent to my recipient that i wish to speak to.I have defined my own personal connetations to these words – im religious and im well balanced but my usage of words is based on my perspectives and feelings not yours – and thats a problem ‘cos you are the one that read “fuck” and thinks this or that or whatever and i think “oh god” is ahumerous phrase like british phrases like “goh bly me” and “you scared the bejesus out of me” and such things – i mean i find this absolfuckinglutly funny and amusing – becuase they are my personal defintions of amusment and personal perspective.I realilse that this is pretty useless for me then to try and communicate like this – its absofuckinglutly stupid – i love that word.
But now i can appreciate the reponces i get in reponce to my ways of expressing myself.But hey “fuck” its all expression and emotion – i want to let go, define , redefiene wahtever i want as i feel it . What fun!
I feel expression like this ,lke on mu blog is freedom, its freeness to just say,feel,experiance what comes to you. Wooohaaa.