Sometimes, when within, I give in, I let my thoughts free, free from the shackles of my mind and they find themselves out here, in the world. On the outside, they float around my face, around my nose they drift magically. So enthusiastic, they smile and swim so swiftly…but I cannot breath. My mind fails …
Can you sense my thoughts? No? Can you feel them Bleeding profusely from my mind? No? I hear them. Funny that? The screams echo terror behind my eyes, and all i hear is white. My eyes go blind as I feel my senses rupture. My body dances aggravated, uncoordinated to the melody of pain and …
I’m defending this wall that sorrounds me. I’ve seen off those that come near, I say to myself that it’s for their sake, but really it’s for me. I’m a wounded soldier, weary of everything – as it’s things that you assume are safe that hurt you the most and stay with you, that scare …
What happens matters – maybe only to us.
a reoccurring dream I have, a misplaced theme perhaps – that I am falling from a great height, I am sensing the end is near and I’m expecting the sky to disappear. a reoccurring thought I have, discerning fight has been fought and as the last man stands – I realise, that – nothing really …
I dont have a lot of time – soon it’ll be gone and I realise that up until this point that I’ve had a good time and I’ve enjoyed it. But as the tide leaves the shores, and calls me to sea, it think how much more I could have lived, and it makes me …
Its an interesting time, when you know its the end. When decisions are made that seem to make sense, that for some reason don’t argue or fight for alternative reasons. When you know that its time to stop, to realise that its enough now and nothing will follow. interesting times these – those that speak …
I’m in a constant state of realisation, every waking moment – i know that I’m loosing. I feel your grip on my hand weaken, forever weakening and I let you slip away into the world, free from me. As I think about my day, it feels empty, without the thoughts of you, knowing that I …
When I loose, sometimes I find solace in blaming it on God. He is my hero sometimes and i hate him also. Sometimes I dont know if i believe in him – but i desperately want to. in this way, he has given a lot to me, he has taken alot from me also – …
Today I said goodbye to one of the most wonderful people I’ve ever known. Its not often that I get distracted. I can’t tell you what it is that captivates me, but its distinct and unique and very very rare, but when i come across is, it notices me and I notice it back – …