I become disconnected. I remember last night… I was dancing with you. you? who are you? Thanks for talking to me – I remember you, I said little. You asked me to slow down, you said I should meet your friend jennifer – It was her birthday, today, the 11 of January. I did, I …
Month: January 2008
bad converstaion what to say?, I hate listening to me – no doubt you hate it too. I’m bad converstation, what do you want me to say to you? Say something to me, I’m bored on thinking what you want to me to say, I’m sick of having to. Stupid girl, I dont want to …
Still, I can’t sleep. My mind is up to something without my knowing, its turning like an engine, over and over and over – I can sense it. It makes me sleepless.
I’m still figuring this life out, the way people are, the way I do things. The reasons for things are not as easy as some people like to think. Their seems to be more to everything. I’m approaching my 21st and I still can’t understand whats happening in my life – I haven’t got it …
i love the thoughts I have of you, not becuase they are somehow dreamy or romantic – but becuase they/you give me something to aim at, direct – my emotions, my frustrations , my anythings – from all the everything that we did, they now populate my mind not with te things that were, but …
I think I need to be somewhere else, where their are open spaces, no computers – no technology no nothing just me and you. i think i need to feel the sand inbetween my toes, the sweat roll off my eye brows. I need conversation, real conversation with real people who have real lives that …
all I can say about this feative season, is that it is gone now. and I cannot determine if I enjoyed it. also, I can’t seem to figure out why or what I did – its seems to be like everything in the past vague and boring. I know though its got its lonely bits, …