I’m still figuring this life out, the way people are, the way I do things. The reasons for things are not as easy as some people like to think. Their seems to be more to everything. I’m approaching my 21st and I still can’t understand whats happening in my life – I haven’t got it figured out yet, i know this, I can feel the spaces that are there, what the spaces are and why they are there and what I need to fill them up is something that I’m still working on, figureing out stuff.
I feel like im missing life, as if life as I want to feel it, is on the other road, and I’m on a side road.
My road is a bit bumpy, doesn’t look like the road has ever been fixed before – its in need of repair, I wonder sometimes why I’m on this road and why I keep traveling on it when their is so much that needs to be done on this journey, the road seems to be the last thing on my mind, but its still there, and I’m still walking it….and i wonder why?
I cannot understand whats pushing me down this road, though all i can do is be brave and try to trust myself. But this doesn’t change anything. I’m still figuring out stuff.
stu