There so many things that are more important and intrinsicly beautifull than what you are doing now. The best one can strive for is the appreciate this that you are not yet embraacing, the highest goal is experiancing it and not forgetting it.
Don’t let your imagination die or become lonely – practise.
Pratise to laugh, to smile, imagine.
See the clouds in the sky, see the skating fairies on the pond, see the gigantic mamoth in the forest.
Don’t let the world we live in change how we see and appreciate things.