worth

sometimes i really wonder what makes a person worth ?
Sometimes i think i could be patience and understanding of other’s feelings and also i think to an extent also leadership and managment of these aspects.
At the end of the day all we have is emotion – ans think it pays to know how to manage and facilliate diffirent types of emotional sitations.Sometimes i also think it involves a certain degree of honesty, self confidence and loyalty.
Maybe and perhaps very important is self understanding and the ability to faciliate emotions becasue you can relate – ie you have these experiances in emotions.
But sometimes it takes a matter of helping someone to understand and trust your judments are in their own intrests – in those that are seeking help.
Maybe someone is worth more due to his/her capabilities to comfort and understand even though at times these elements are pushed to the absolute limits.
And its when things are so constraint and difficult that one can still manage to successfully deal with circumstances that are not his/her own and deal with someones else’s.
To a certain point one may think , that its the possibility of helping where others fail not due to lack of ability but due to lack of guidance and understanding.
Sometimes I wonder how many people I know have such difficult job like this – i think i know about a handfull and the rest – seek, rather than help or experiance.
It happens to be a interesting idea of how certain types of people enjoy the ability to interact and apprecaite – perhaps this is also important – So people appreciate things ten times more than other – and they allow the recivers to know of this appreciation and they understand others feelings are in regard to ‘appreciation’.
somtimes i think the population is weak and they are feeders of emotion and they are not at the same level as some people that would/could appreate their positions ans standings.
I dont know – when i find that someone i know …in fact i don’t know.
Fuck – its all about balancing the forces that be.
But sometimes i wonder how thing would change if i didn’t question the worth of the people i know.
Sometimes i rekon that things can be transparetn and sometimes they can be intentionally hidden – i find that people that are transpart are either lacking development in large degrees or are proficent in many ways and therefor are in advanced stages of development and can deal with many issues that the former cant.
Then i see people that are inentionally hidding things from other – with the intension of not giving vital information about themself to others to crituque – and often itsthe view of critisism that they automatially envisage.
Though i myself find myself tending to for mthe latter group with continual effoerts to branch out and i think its working – such a thought as this one is indicitive for developments i think.
But what i have come to learn is not to try to learn someone or something too quick , becuase often you are decived by their outward presentastion of emotions and stuff, but to take time to appreciate their positions and somehow sympathyse and by the same token understand and offer input towards them and their positions.
Maybe its the craving for help or helping that drives one to help other – perhaps its the inability to help oneself in which you are labeled a hypocrit or sometime its the successfully feeling of someones else experiancing the same thing – which i think is a good mutual relationship.
But still it remains difficlt in general to understand that whch doesn’t want ot be understood – but the fact i think that is evident in all this hiding of oneself inner thoughs and feelings is a feeling of self credibility – something that a person thinks about him/herself that they think they feel and don’t care what others feel and thus dont see the reason to share it with a person who may seek to understand this person and this perons ideas, feelings and thoughts.
I think that when a person think him/herself to be selfconfidence and has convinced themselfs this and won’t be influenced by external forces (as to lock them out ) one has taken control of one aspect of ones emotion – self confidence but i feel that this is only half the way – the other way im still trying to figure out – but it seems to me that their has to be something more because these people often cannot relate to others.And when they do (they can!) its due to false impresions so as to hide their own feelings of confidence – so no one can scrutinise their seemingly high recognition of themselves – maybe one need to allow for critisizm – even though its like fucking hard.
I really don’t know – but what i think i do know is that people can be measured and it think that in some cases this is inappropraite and in other is a fair wait to cilibrate a persons perspectives and stand points – this is good to see how you and that person can work on a practical level of equal advantage.
I have now more than most times started to crit those that i ‘know’ and really try yo undersand whether they are worth while to know and that they have the potential and flair that i;d like to be around – as to pick up and learn and experiance from it.
Though many people have difficulties – and so do i.
I think more about people as potential extentions of me that as separate entities and so i must compare me to them always.