Sometimes I think i know how thngs are going to be, how they are going to unfold, its as though i can read what wil happen next based on what has bappened before.
Then I realise, how is this possible and often i think about whats actually going to happen next.Somehow I am so calm and collected and reserved with no stress and intruige about whats going to happen cos somehow I know whats going to happen, and I’m not so apprehaensive – though I think I should be because the future is volatile and unexpectand – i think – but mabe i’m naive and i should look at things more objectivly.
Though I always ‘see’ whats before me, I see where I am going, how I’m going to do it and wheather its going to be okay or not.This sometimes scared the hell out of me, because am i being so naive that i cant see the apparent and obvious things?
Am i dreaming ? have things gone out of controll aready.
But somehow i still after all this commotion and noise in myhead, settel down and relax and just unwind with no worries…am I so incontrol of myslef ? Or am i totally spining out of control and this just affirms me spinning and not even noticing it?
But somehow I just know…