never been honest

i dont think i’ve ever really been honest with anybody, least myself at times.
I’ve been thinking about the future, and i think i found something.
Its not what i’ve found, its how i found it.Somtimes i dont understand what certain things mean when i find them, but, thats becuase in the context at which they have been placed in – its all wrong. But i see things my way now, and it leads me to this : whats really important is drawing the distinction in life in as much as you decide whats important to you – whats out there thats makes you feel good, happy , comforable…this is amoung the greatest distinctions i feel can be made – deciding whats you, what connects with you – is it family or friends, caring or sharing ?
Though this is abreak through, i still need to trust myself more and be more honest.