Like a faint heartbeat, i still feel you – though i shouldn’t.
It’s like somehow being apart of something that is so connected to you that everything that happens and is, has an effect on you.Like the ripples in a pond, each vibration is transfered apon each water molecule – but hey thats how it is. I can’t get away from it, though i am trying to, im trying to because it hurts me to feel those vibrations, that fine heartbeat that tells me you are still there – and im still here.Its a killer – truly it sucks.
The more i want to forget, the more i cant – how can you forget emotion ? Thats a story.
I suppose what you can do though, is to store it, but far away , where you almost can’t see it – that way do don’t consider it- its tough though – like i don’t know – but damn it sucks.
Like everytime you enconuter it, it sets back a whole huge explicit effort to forget it or somehow, soften the effects it has on you….
Why would i want to forget this ?
Becasue im a sissy…honestly i am.
Becuase it hurts me.