sometimes you feel like so want to live in a certain way or rather perhaps you aim to reach certain pivot points in life.Sort of like your ambisions.I aimed at living a full life – always busy, time constraints and hectic schedules with the hope of being encumbersed in activity.I especially like this ‘always busy’ feeling – cos it sometimes make me feel well used.Dynamic lifestyle and living is/was still a issue that i liked – i loved the feeling of independance – especially in the work place, doing work you love, saturising efforts and being so very tired due to it.it sounds wierd sometimes – you want to be busy all the time.I suppose being who i am , developed the way i am, has lead me to persue such ways of life – one of the things that i have always stived for is being able to seamlessly intergrate with daily activities that promote ‘normalities’ of normal day living.One means this : you enjoy the freedom of workplace related routines – meetings, interactions with people regarding things you enjoy and like – things like coffee in the working and periodic refils in the office.I think that interactions in the office have promoted my sence of dynamic living – you are apart of something that everyone else is,the real show is how you express youself and display you as a person out their – esppecially with the new people you meet.I know this sounds a bit stange but i think one thing that sets all things apart right here is the sense of belonging – i must admit that i and most people sometimes in their life model their ways to others, and this is not a bad thing – leonardo da vinci had a patron, rapheal was an aprentice – but sometimes we don’t know when to break away from the habit of following – i am a person that is developing, each new experiance is a feather in my cap.The great thing right now is the distinctions that i can see that must be made and can be made.My level of development has allowed my to see my self proportionally in relation to things that are around me.Of all this, dynamic living, usual roution, fitting to societies glove, i have come to understand where i fit in this who evolution of life.And with this new sight, i can break away and set the standards and goals that are pertinent to me – not to my goals based on others’.Perhaps one could say that it is maturity – bullshit.Its a constant development , dynamic development perhaps.It happens right through our lives – the only thing that doesn’t seem to stand out is that it is an ongoiong thing.Its like being in a great big building and in each of the many rooms, you are taught things and enable you to move to the next room, up in the building.The diffirence here is that at each room you see why you want to get to the next room, where as before you dont see that.You just see that you are in the current room.Its like a bubble, most times , especially if you couple my ideas of dynamic living with that of the room in a building theory i have you get this : You are living each day as it comes, each day comes and you lib\ve and deal with things that surface, you meet new people nd you work hard religiously , or perhaps its diffient – but the fact remains , is you keep doing this each day – things might change day to day but the fact remains is that you just keep going.The critial point here is that you aer living in a bubble, everything you do is in this bubble, your mind is here and it works in relation to inside this bubble, the problem is you lose track of what you are doing in the long run – you are in the bubble so how can you see what the bubble is doing? The relation to other things in the bubble you can grasp, but things outside the bubble you cant.You need to stand back and look at the bubble and see what effect and relation the bubble has.It is often that my daily routines are full of diffirent things that are meaningfull and sure, i learn and enjoy things.But i loose track of me, what am i doing- my doing something – you cant watch watch youself doing it -doh, and thats what i mean by being in a bubble and worse – living a dynamic lifestyle.Worse? I wanted that lfe style – but i know now at my stage here now in my life that things are modifiable and can change – what i feel now is the feeling that certain thing *should* change.perhaps i can attribute my develpoment to the reasoning that i feel that the bubble is running most of our lives – and you can compare the bubble to the theory of living in tune with societies trends.But the real scary part of all this is , fine, you know that you are now a active member in your life who can see clearly and make active disciions for youself and know your position in life in relation and in proportion, sure.But when this happens you see all the oppertunities – which are far more than before you had this ‘epiphany’.The problems is? their is a problem? it sounds too good to be true! Yep. The problem is finding the courage to persue these opertunities.They are so real and they are possibilities and now you need to make disicions based on them.Whats wrong with that? Well you have never really made any of your real disicions byself – they have been driven by peoples thoughts, and conventinos and perhaps in the rare case – advice here and their.So for the first time you are on your own- scary.I think the next part of my development- the next room i need to go to is the one where- i summon the courage the persue these oppertunities.And when they have been done -its the next thing.I think this really is the only time one can feel free – is when you make active disicions by yourself.I see a lot of oppertunity in business – but im a bit scared right now! But im working on it. But i have got this far : if you want to take certain approaches towards these oppertunities – what have you got to loose? Bankruptcy ? You’re single – so what – bankruptcy can kill you.Worst is they take everything you have – so what, you start the next project – invest in the next thing that you see.Keep doing this until perhaps you strike gold – what if you don’t ? you will – if you have got to this stage in your development – you have succeeded far past most people – they are still in the bubble and dont know what effect they have on their lives.And whats more rewarding at the end of the day than knowing that you have total freedom in your life.
You have total freedome in your life – if anything this is the one thing that you should always treasure – so if you fail – relax.After you fail you are still at the same place you where before, the same sight of oppertunities and most of all freedome, start again!
My hassles are firstly the slow realisations of my abilities…freedom.
Second is my scariness to make that big risk.
Risks are so important i see – i just can’t summon the courage to deal with it and go through with it.But i am here aren’t it.I have developed to this stage – i need just to develop a bit more.
So this is where i am – i see clearly now – i am in the league of the giants – i know dynamic living and bubble lifestyle is not for me – i have made the distinction.
Im developing and i’ll contine to develop in love, life , business in everything i do – but this time, i’ll be watching my every move.