i think that it is tragic that i have to put myself through this, its actually pretty sad, it really is.But i can’t change what i can’t control ( or maybe its what i dont want to control ).
Maybe Im a sadly deluded and misguided fool – that could be it…lol
but i suppose iy makes my fragile heart stronger.
Though i am pretty angry with myself for getting myself so far and then having to let myself back.
I suppose i shouldn’t have started it in the first place – and it wan’t even my idea, it was whats her names’s ( wonder how she is ) – hope she’s okay, really i do – in fact i miss her madly.
just cause she was always willing to be normal – i actually liked her more for being true than anything else.
oh well, next!