I caught myself today saying “i swear to god…” , and i thought abit tomyself.
I have the call it liberal way of expressing myself and involving emotional connetations like god and jesus – sometimes you could think im a athiets – but far from it.
I nowadays catch my self saying stuff like “jesus!”, “oh god!”,
or “jesus christ, thats teribble” or something like that.
I was listening to a record-track someday and it was entitles “i don’t give a a fuck” -it was a good record – it was a dance track that recited this phrase every 2nd beat – but what it did say was “Fuck – the one word that will identify your character immediatly..”
And i was like damn, thats probably right – i say it so liberally and other stuff ‘cos i don’t mean it in bad ways – i have defined them personally as my everyday usual – and very emotional words – but, that doesn’t change what other percieve them to be – thats bad – ‘cos then they just misinterpret them and think damn – this guys like bad news – he swears like a trooper and uses gods name in vain – he’s a devil worshiper or something – and you know that hurts me – because nothing could be further from the truth – but i suppose i was waiting for it – how can i be so oblivious to their effects – when i speak trully i involve my every day thoughts and indeed words – but the way i mean them .
When i say think like “oh fuck!” – its like the big macho phrase for ” goh blimmey!” or” oh no!” but i use it because it means more to me than these phrases it uses more emotion – thats what i am – i asm realistic – rain emotion.
Things like “jesus” is well just my deranged way…I think i feel them more as funny(no seriosly) than anything else – so im to blame when i get the effects of someones not feeling exactly the same way it do – duh ?
So i suppose its a learning curve – though im not going to stop expressing what i feel.
Im realistic – if it is not right – its wrong –
Simply Easy Stupid.