i am so very proud of you that you have found someone who makes you feel you.
im along way from there, but im working on it, im working at making me feel me.
the nice thing i feel right now is this feeling of freeness from you, a great freedom of openness.
i am stepping into a quite place , a wonderful place, right here where everything seem to radiate a comforatable unknowingness.and thats okay.
i have released myself from myself here for a while, ithink im liking this new process im taking of discovering myself.
i have taken a quite convervative approach of late, i have worked at it though.
i have met two people that make me scared this year.
i have subtly stepped out of their way( how i did that i have no idea ), but i managed to which
is important.
i dont think im searching but im being found.
the good news is that i think im getting there.
i am not trying to reach a certain approach, im just trying to read my mind.
i like to think of you as my second conscious, my transission from holding back and letting go.
so before i want to know someone, i need to know a little more about myself.
im learning me and its fun.
i am doing more things that i want
i decided the other day to start judo again, i have been doing it for about a month now.
and its good.
the bad news is that im getting my butt kicked( even by girls).but thats okay.
im taking time off, its great.
im finding myself.
finally! i think.
its nice to think fate has a defined way, like you say, and thats a good thing.
it makes us feel that what we do makes no effect on the things that happen.
its nice for me to think like that but strangly enough, i dont feel that way.
why i say things like this is cos if it was true, i would have no control in my life, and nothing i do has any impact on the thing that i expariance.
so i feel its the effects that we produce that makes things to tend to bend in a certain way.
but hey, thats just me.
i am just so grateful that i can speak with you again.
and im glad that your happy, so
im happy too.
you said that you are good at listening, thats good, cos im good at telling.
fondest regards
stu